This hurts.

The one thing that truly destroys and devastates me is when I see my best friend upset and broken.

When somebody hurts me, I usually get hurt, but I usually can cope with it, and that's because I know I have my true friends out there. But when my best friend is that way, I feel broken. My heart shatters and I start to feel like the worst friend in the world.

The main thing that I want in life more than anything is for my best friend to be happy. I know that it's going to take a lot of work considering the condition he's currently in, but I know that one day, he will be okay. And the day when he's happy, is when I'll be happy, because I've learnt that knowing that he's not well, and that he's not happy, well, it makes me feel like crap personally, and it worries me, and yeah, I just feel like shit. And I know that the both of us are fed up of feeling that way. We both want to be happy more than anything. And one day, that will happen.

I'm going to work my hardest to make him happy. I'm not going to let him doubt himself any more, because there is absolutely nothing wrong with him. He's the bestest friend I've personally ever had. He's been there for me through thick and thin, just like I've been there for him. Never will an amazing guy like him doubt himself. Never.

I don't know if he'll read this, but I just want him to know that I'll never, ever, leave his side. He's never going to lose me as a friend, because I care. He is a part of me now, and I don't care how pathetic that sounds. I'm speaking the truth. He is my best friend, and I love him so much.

/blog over.